Squat Practice

In the last few weeks since I signed a year of my life away to a country I've never been to before, I've been struggling with some mountains and valleys--worries about my life before- and in-country. With you, my readers, I will share two.

1. The Potty Squat
Yes, friends, instead of doing Chinese language study or brushing up my knowledge of culture, I have been researching something else.

Public toilets. 

Not something bad, but something I need to be informed about. Here is an example of a picture I found:

Along with lots of pictures of public restroom stalls with no doors. This, of course, left me panicked about how my squatting skills would be judged by fellow potty-ers. So I watched an informative video on the Asian squat: 

The long and short of it is that, once your tendons are used to it, squatting with heels on the ground is FAR more sustainable over...say...a longer period of time. SO. I have been practicing. And my sessions look like this: 

I think my skills will get better with practice. 

2. Trusting my Father

Have I ever gone a day without food? Without clothing? Without someone to provide the few extra cents I need for a caramel brulee latte if I REALLY have to have it (and it's in season)? 

NO.

But here I am, sitting with a Calling in my lap and about ten dollars in my wallet, looking at the sky with furrowed brows and saying, "Can I really raise enough to do this?" 

NO.

I can't. But my Father can. He could whistle and BOOM all $16,000 needed would fall onto my head. And whyyy doesn't He just do that (the question many people in my situation face)??? Because He wants to develop something I need in order to be strong enough to do what I've been Called to do: trust. 

Trust means not running over possible figures in my again and again. Trust means listening to His words instead of babbling about my worries. Trust means sticking with the path I've been put on. Trust means having the humility to lean on others He will bring alongside me in this Call. 

And much like facing the future unknown public restrooms, it's a scary thing.